May 12th

    Words cannot express how excited I am for May 12th to come. I have been waiting for years! The official release of the sequel to Legend of Zelda: Breath of The Wild, Legend of Zelda: Tears of The Kingdom! When it was announced back in, perhaps, 2018 or 2019, I couldn't contain my excitement. I have such an emotional bond with the first game because of not only how much I played through it while I was in the Navy, but it became one of my "healthier" forms of escape while I was going through those dark times in my life. 

    The timing of the sequel's release is completely paramount to everything that is going on in my life right now. Will I use the sequel as another "healthy" escape from my own reality? Absolutely. Does it help that the release falls on a Saturday and school will be over by then? Absolutely. Needless to say, I cannot wait to explore the many changes that are coming our way, and the addition to this beautiful storyline. 

    One thing I have noticed on a complete side note, is my fascination to play as the hero. I've shared many anecdotes with my therapist, and it seems that I have the hero's complex. Having been faced with many dark times, I have come to the realization that I've developed a complicated hero's complex. Where instead of striving to be "problem solver" to any given problem for someone else, let's add another layer to that, I do it in order to avoid my own problems. My own form of escape from my own reality by diving into the reality of others. Has this been fruitful? Yeah. I've helped lots of people along my journey's path. But my own fruit has grown to be bad, rotting almost, because of the neglect I have given it. Time to be the bad guy, I guess. Anyone else excited for this release?

Fun with formulas...

    Can I just say that writing formulas in Microsoft Excel feels like I am writing code. Anyone else agree to that? The plethora of functions that are available to a person in Excel are mind-blowing, not to mention that specific ways that they have to be written. I am however, very grateful for having been taught how to properly use these formulas in this chapter. 

Ain't no rest for the wicked

    Do I plan on resting, living up the spring break dream of getting blacked out drunk and partying all day? No. I got that phase of my life out of me when I was in the Navy. The only thing I plan to do is continue to go to work, take care of my homework, and be a dad/husband. The constants in my life; however, I do plan on reading in my spare time! I haven't read in a very long time. I remember how I would read several books a year when I was in High School or even in the Navy, and I've lost touch in that side of me. My therapist recommended me to read a book, and a lot of my reading has been based on suggestions. She recommended to read Atlas of the Heart by Brené Brown. 

    This suggestion was brought about on my difficulty to manage my emotions. One of the things that stuck with me in my last therapy session was understanding that it is difficult to manage your emotions if you don't know what emotions they are. So here I am, diving head first into this book expecting multiple emotional slaps to the face.